The Moment Nicole Kidman Knew She Needed To Move On From Her Tom Cruise Split

In 2003, Nicole Kidman bagged the Best Actress Academy Award for her performance in "The Hours." When author Dave Karger spoke to the actor for his book "50 Oscar Nights," Kidman confessed that she was internally falling apart back then because her divorce from Tom Cruise was finalized around the same time. The Aussie native's sadness coupled with her natural introversion made Kidman want to go straight back to her hotel room, but people urged her to attend a Vanity Fair Oscars party while proudly showing off her trophy. 

She didn't feel much better doing that, so Kidman ultimately called it a night and ordered takeout, recalling, "I sat on the floor of the hotel eating French fries and a burger with my family and went to bed," adding, "That's when it hit me. I went, I need to find my love; I need a love in my life. Because this is supposed to be when you go, 'This is ours,'" (via People). Since the "Big Little Lies" star hadn't found her match by then, she went to sleep all alone before the clock even struck 12. 

Kidman vowed that if she was ever honored with an Oscar again, the actor would enjoy a proper, day-long celebration. However, award shows weren't exactly fun for Kidman during her marriage to Cruise. In an Easy Living interview (via Us Weekly), she remembered feeling as though she didn't belong with the other actors and was only there to be a pretty but silent cheerleader for Cruise.